![Fear: of disclosure, losing my license, and losing face. This is my physician burnout story as a founder of Physicians Anonymous.](https://physiciansanonymous.org/wp-content/uploads/2022/01/pina-messina-iIDiRMITYik-unsplash-4-300x195.jpg)
A Physician Burnout Story (Part 1)
My career and life crashed to a halt after 25 years in clinical medicine. I was at one point “suicidal with planning and intent”. Medical knowledge in the hands of a suicidal physician can be deadly. As an affluent, respected physician, confident in my position, well-liked and admired by society, yet suffering inside, why did I not seek help?